The reason I like photography club is that I get the oppertunity to show others all the pictures and ideas I would usually only look at myself (at least, that is how I thought it would go).
I don't have any of my close friends in that club, I don't have half the confidence some of my fellow schoolmates have and I definately don't have the energy to jump through hoops to be noticed. When we get homework to photograph something, I feel a certain sense of pride looking back at all the beautiful things I've seen. I walk into class and all I see is people on their laptops going "look at what I took" or "I really like THIS one". So far, I've only stood by, politely smiling as the same person presents for the fifth time. I think I can safely say that I have a confidence issue. Not because I don't want people to see what I'm doing but because I'm affraid of being judged. Sometimes I walk through the school halls hearing and seeing the meanest things and wonder why I don't have camera to record and send to the director of 'mean girls'.
Oh well, i suppose what i'm trying to say, is that I don't really enjoy photography club at moment. It's almost like the past two weeks have been an eye opener. If I don't step up, I will drown, i need to learn how to swim and fight for the things I want. Not to be a mean person (that is the absolute last thing I want to do), but to prove to myself that I am worthy of being noticed. Everyday is beautiful. ENJOY IT
Okay, this post is feeling a little like a diary entry :p
Next week, I'll post something more entertaining!